Schaudenfreude

I know that this is cruel, but ginnunggap alerts me to the new invention of an "anti-rape" condom. My first reaction was "ouch... tiny hooks in a guy's penis? OWWW." My second reaction was to imagine the look on his face as he discovered: "you have teeth in your cunt!" And I couldn't stop laughing.

Of course, there's that entire serious side of things, where you worry about the woman getting killed instead of raped, but it was still an amusing image. Yes, I have a sick sense of humor. I'm a woman, what do you expect? ;)

Fear of damnation

Right now, classes are starting everywhere, and I'm nowhere. I'm not a part of anything, because of the job situation and my own inability to do anything.

I'm afraid of everything.

I'm afraid my soul is lost, that I'm damned. I know that people, that friends, and (probably) an organized religion would help me, but I keep hesitating about conversion. (I get angry at the Catholic church's sexual politics and the way that individual bishops have treated gay people; I am frustrated at the seeming stiffness of many Protestant churches, and the Jewish mindset doesn't seem to quite fit.)

So I sit in nothing. Very constructive of me.

Morbid humor

Doom! Doom!