kimberkit | Fear of damnation

Right now, classes are starting everywhere, and I'm nowhere. I'm not a part of anything, because of the job situation and my own inability to do anything.

I'm afraid of everything.

I'm afraid my soul is lost, that I'm damned. I know that people, that friends, and (probably) an organized religion would help me, but I keep hesitating about conversion. (I get angry at the Catholic church's sexual politics and the way that individual bishops have treated gay people; I am frustrated at the seeming stiffness of many Protestant churches, and the Jewish mindset doesn't seem to quite fit.)

So I sit in nothing. Very constructive of me.