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What would you change?
Apr. 9th, 2005 08:21 pmFrom Stock's Book of Questions: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
Not anything major, although there are always details to work on. I have a life. For the most part, I like my life. If I died in a year, I'd have no regrets. I did a fine job with what I was given.
I'm okay teaching, and I'm getting better. I love my friends. I was hurt when my boyfriend recently dumped me, but I was only suicidal for a day, before I got myself back together and realized there were too many things to be alive for to take that route.
I struggle with depression, but I think I do as well as anyone could expect; I've grown up a lot since college, when it would consume me for months at a time. I'm very sad at the moment, but I have a sense of perspective about it; I know that it'll be okay eventually, and it's only hard now.
I could be more productive than I am, and engage in more projects;![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
kizlj often inspires me with the way she just takes on projects. I wish I'd make time for a writing project, although I don't know if I really have the grit to get through it; we'd see, then, I guess.
I could be more organized, as a teacher, and I can certainly grow calmer. All of that stuff comes with time, though, and it's not as if I'm not already working on it.
I guess I could do more charity work, but I think I actually do my share as far as dedicating my life to others.
I'd like to live elsewhere. I'd like to see more sights. I don't like living in New York, and I think some of the long winters help add to my sadness. But.. overall, I've had a good shake, you know? I've had issue with my parents, and some of them pretty awful, but I also was born to a relatively wealthy family, and I went to a priveleged college, and I helped a few kids after college when I started teaching. And I make people around me smile, when I get to see them.
I wish I could be more consistently positive, instead of being as easily overwhelmed as I am and occaisonally dragging people down with me, but I've learned to accept that limitation, and I don't think most of my friends mind -- because they're generally all good, kind people.
What about you? Would you change anything about the way you're living now?
Not anything major, although there are always details to work on. I have a life. For the most part, I like my life. If I died in a year, I'd have no regrets. I did a fine job with what I was given.
I'm okay teaching, and I'm getting better. I love my friends. I was hurt when my boyfriend recently dumped me, but I was only suicidal for a day, before I got myself back together and realized there were too many things to be alive for to take that route.
I struggle with depression, but I think I do as well as anyone could expect; I've grown up a lot since college, when it would consume me for months at a time. I'm very sad at the moment, but I have a sense of perspective about it; I know that it'll be okay eventually, and it's only hard now.
I could be more productive than I am, and engage in more projects;
kizlj often inspires me with the way she just takes on projects. I wish I'd make time for a writing project, although I don't know if I really have the grit to get through it; we'd see, then, I guess.I could be more organized, as a teacher, and I can certainly grow calmer. All of that stuff comes with time, though, and it's not as if I'm not already working on it.
I guess I could do more charity work, but I think I actually do my share as far as dedicating my life to others.
I'd like to live elsewhere. I'd like to see more sights. I don't like living in New York, and I think some of the long winters help add to my sadness. But.. overall, I've had a good shake, you know? I've had issue with my parents, and some of them pretty awful, but I also was born to a relatively wealthy family, and I went to a priveleged college, and I helped a few kids after college when I started teaching. And I make people around me smile, when I get to see them.
I wish I could be more consistently positive, instead of being as easily overwhelmed as I am and occaisonally dragging people down with me, but I've learned to accept that limitation, and I don't think most of my friends mind -- because they're generally all good, kind people.
What about you? Would you change anything about the way you're living now?
