Counterproductive

Notes to oneself: when one is stressed out and curling up all the time, a good solution is to do something to fix the problem. Do not stay angry at one's friends for happening to be inconveniently located or otherwise occupied; it's not their job to be there all the time.

Oh, hell. I am angry.

I'm fucked up, and I don't know what to do.

Phoenix

A kid at my school -- a likable freshman, a bit of a goofball, but a good kid -- was shot yesterday. He was selling CDs on 145th street. The kid who shot him was 13.

The NY Times did a writeup, as did the Daily News, but it will hardly make news for longer than 15 seconds, because urban kids are expected to shoot each other.

My colleagues and I grieved over this, but the prevailing attitude was, "it's been a few years since one of our kids was killed. We're lucky it's been this long."